Weeks 3 & 4

Well, it appears I'm not so good at this blogging thing after all.... it's been 12 days since my last update.  I'd like to blame it on the holidays, or not enough time (like I do with exercise), but neither one is really a good excuse.  So, where did I leave off???

Well, the last 12 days in review go something like this...... Went to Fort Wayne for my family Christmas the weekend before the actual holiday.  Leading up to this I was still having a hard time with the supplements.  I believe I cheated with a piece of grilled chicken (again, cheated as in I'm not suppossed to have real food yet).  The whole weekend was hard.  Food was all around me.  Unlike my fridge at home (which is empty) my Mom's was full AND they were eating meals in front of me.  I really feel for those people on the program that have families.  It must be SO hard.  However, the hardest part was my family Christmas.  I was fine without the alcohol, and even the sweets didn't bother me much.  However, the chicken wings, chips & cheese, and most of all PIZZA were more than I could handle.  If I had the chance to be alone in the kitchen I probably would've gone for it, but thankfully there was always someone around.  When I left that night I felt a sense of accomplishment, but I also kept thinking about how hard it had been and what I had sacrificed. 

The week got harder and a few times I substituted 3" of a Subway sandwich (all the veggies with mustard and no cheese) for one of my meal replacement bars.  The calorie content was the same, and it was a healthy choice, so I didn't feel too guilty.  After all, I could've done a lot worse like pizza or cookies.  Leading up to Christmas Day I did treat myself to dinner at Applebees with some friends.  I ordered the under 500 calorie steak dinner (360 calories) which was equivalent to 2 meal replacements and it was the most amazing dinner I had eaten.... well, at least within the past four weeks!  LOL

Once again it was back to my Mom's for Christmas Day.  I found this weekend to be even harder than the one before.  I was faced with cookies & brownies (brownies are my weakness), pecan pastry (which is tradition from my grandparents on Christmas morning), ham dinner at my step-grandma's, and appetizers at a family friend's home.  The smell of freshly cooked bacon and french toast my Mom made for breakfast almost drove me crazy!!  This was such a huge sacrifice for the holidays and it was amazing how I felt at times like I was missing out on the traditional Christmas.  However, in the end I realized how many calories I saved myself by not giving in to all the opportunities I had to eat a cookie here or dinner there.  I snacked on veggies and fruit most of the weekend with the biggest splurge being celery with peanut butter and raisins. 

So, that brings us to today!  Now I'm too tired to continue, but I promise to be back tomorrow to tell the ending of my week 3 & 4 story with my total weight loss for the two weeks!  Stay tuned.